Saturday, February 7, 2009

Reading Between The Lines

I never meant to talk about this directly, but the poem I wrote yesterday had people asking me if I’m OK, so I feel like I need to explain it better. My dad is terminally ill, and probably has a year to live. I’m not really OK right now—that “convulsing” heart is mine. Most days I’m able to push the worry and sadness aside and get through the day. Then, like the day I wrote that poem, the pain hits hard. I’m so grateful to my husband, family and friends, whom have helped me get those all-consuming moments.

I’m very grateful, too, for all your kind words and support. Thank you.

13 comments:

•´.¸¸.•¨¯`♥.Erin.♥´¯¨•.¸¸.´• said...

I'm sorry to hear that. It's hard seeing a parent sick like that, I know.

Tiffany said...

I remember when you first mentioned that he is sick - I am sorry to hear that the news is bad. Our thoughts are with you. Do the kids know? How are they taking it?

Quirky Mom said...

Cathy, I'm very sorry. I promise not to talk about it unless you want to, okay? <3

laughingatchaos said...

I'm so sorry hon. I can't imagine. {{hugs}}

StatMama said...

I'm sorry to hear about your dad. I'm glad that you can use writing as an outlet, it can be very healing. Sending good thoughts your way.

hokgardner said...

I am so sorry about your dad. I can't imagine how hard it must be. I'll be keeping you and your family in my thoughts.

Kathleen said...

Cathy I am so sorry about your news, all our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. If you need anything please let me know. Thinking of you

janny226 said...

I'm so sorry to hear that. My dad has Alzheimer's, and it's a slow form of loss as well. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

bernthis said...

My dad just turned 82 and I"m 3000 miles away and i'm always worried about him. I'm so sorry to hear about your dad.

the mama bird diaries said...

Oh I'm so sorry. My thoughts are with you and your family. That sounds so difficult.

maggie said...

I'm so sorry. My mom was terminally ill for an extended time, and it was difficult, to say the least. Your haiku pretty much said about how I remember feeling, too. That just sucks. I wish I could do something more than let you know my ear is available if it would ever help (I get it if not, too).

a friend to knit with said...

oh cathy. i am so sorry.
please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you.

Cookie said...

That is tough. My heart goes out to you and your family.